Hibernate

I will hibernate for the meantime. Just don't feel well today.
I feel like drinking German beer today. ASJ and I got one case of Radler.

Just Feel Better
Santana/Aerosmith


She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got a key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
Because it never worked before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have a season
Round and round it goes
And every day's the one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I'd do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

Perfect relationship from an Electronics Engineer's Point of VIew

If I were to model a perfect relationship thru transistors, ICs and passive devices here is what I propose:

Isn't she lovely

Last June 27, my sister-in-law gave birth to a beautiful bouncing baby girl. We call her Julia Francesca.

I miss my niece....

Me, Myself and Nijmegen

Last Saturday while contemplating, I realized that I have been in Netherlands for a week. Whew! It feels like a lifetime already.

Last friday, July 14, was my flight to Nijmegen, Netherlands. A very good friend drove me to the airport. It was quite difficult to accept that I will be leaving and so for the past days and months, I never thought about the idea of me finally moving in to a different country. So when that day came, I have to bear everything...all the pain and fear of being alone. Foreseeing that this will happen, God gave me a push. I was about to question him already about his plans for me and why he sent me to Europe when suddenly, I was in the immigration line, the immigration officer checked thoroughly my papers (and i mean THOROUGHLY) and asked me of my purpose to stay in Holland. With pride, I told her " I shall be employed there" and I will move in as a knowledge immigrant. Suddenly she asked me about papers and stickers and organizations I have never heard off. Suddenly, I felt perspiration ran over my head. I have totally forgotten about asking God why he is going to send me to Europe. I suddenly thought " God, why are you doing this?". Then I realized...maybe this is his way of letting me realize and appreciate what I have. And surely, I did. And since then, I learned to accept my fate, Europe that is.

For those who are wondering, yes, I made it. Magaling mambola ang lola eh. Har Har Har!

Thank you very much for those who remembered and sent me a message before I left. I managed to call a few of them though. Sa iba, pasensya na po. Mahirap palang pigilan ang pag-iyak.

I came to Netherlands safely. Aileen gurrrl is my housemate. She used to be my colleague back in ADI. I was never a crybaby, but for a week (until now), I have been trying to keep my self from being lonely. I look at pictures of my friends and family but the more I stare at them, the more I miss home and my friends. Lungkot noh? Well, everything happens for a reason. And I know I am doing this for a purpose.

Last weekend was not quite a good one and I don't know why. We went to amsterdam and I was able to see former ADI colleagues. It was fun but the rain made me think about things. Drama ko noh? Hehehe.

I spent the night alone since ASJ went to party with her filipino friends here in Netherlands. I just stayed at home, feeling that it would be better that way for the meantime.

Below are pictures taken when I first came to Holland and during the Amsterdam tour:


Our Sala




Me and ASJ (my eyes seem sad di ba?)






Me, Rey and Elanie at a cafe at Amsterdam


Me at Amsterdam




Windmills!!!




Malalim na iniisip

When you're alone and you feel like crying

Ola!!!!!

Behold, my blog is now revived!!!! Thanks to my deep loneliness, I was able to find time to rejuvinate this dead blog.

Yes I am lonely for a couple of reasons which I don't plan to tell any of my blog viewers (as if I have). How I have wanted to try some of those happy brownies just to feel good.

Well, well. But I don't want to take happy brownies so I just cry and shed those tears once in a while. Para akong baliw. Hehe. Baliw naman talaga ako.

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