New site

The new site is http://zaren.multiply.com/

Letting Go...

As I would always say....it would be very difficult to hold on to a hand that pushes you away. I am collapsing this blog to give way to a new one. To a new life. And finally let go of the previous life I have been trying to stick to. It is hard to be kind to someone who is cruel. It is far more difficult to be warm with someone who is cold with you.

Thank you very much to all those who have stay tuned to this blog. IF THERE WERE ANY.

A new one coming up and I shall be posting it here. But it may take time to pick up the pieces and start anew. But I am sure it will be better.

Numb

It's been a long time, I know.

I am not keeping my words, I know.

And no, I do not have a new blog that's why I can't update this blog. I was just quite busy the past few days...weeks...month

A poetry I wrote out of depression....

I can't breathe
Strangled by the chains around my neck
I can't move
My feet are tied to the ground
I can't shout
My tongue is tied up
I can't hear
My ears are covered
I can't see
I am blinded by my faith
That things will get better and brighter
I don't feel anything
I am numb

Ruins under construction

Yes, I have been incapable of doing something productive in this blog for months. In life, sometimes you have to dismantle and clear up everything to start anew. Mine starts now. The new blog will rise in a couple of days. Please stay tuned.

Pictures from Belgium

Hi Guys!!!
Long time no update (yun ang sabi ng aking kaibigang sobra ko nang namimisss...si Can!)

Kaya eto, pix from our trip to Belgium.

http://zaren.multiply.com/photos/album/18

And I am back....

After a long hibernation....

Goede avond! Hoe gaat het met you? Alles goede?

Those are the only Dutch words I know right now. I am planning to take my course next week. They say that Dutch is very similar with German language. So with that, I will start with my German lessons too. Hehehe....

Life is a bit boring here. I live in a village where the sun sets by 10 PM and the temperature is typically 15C. Cold. Really cold. I couldn't imagine how it would be by winter. By then, I might be in the Philippines for a short vacation.

I have started biking here in Netherlands. However, I don't have my own bike yet. I plan on buying once I get my euros. I also plan to buy a DSLR. To learn photography. And nope, I am not going to take nude pictures, noh!

A lot of things have been realized the past few weeks...

....that Philippines is waaaaay to far from where I am right now
.....that there is a lot to learn in FA....
....that it must be lonely being in a place where people would speak a language that is not familiar to you...
.....that friends are soooo far away when you need them....
.....and that it is hard to converse with a dutch when he doesn't speak english ( and i dont speak dutch!)

cute ng background video noh? medyo hawig ko ng konti..hehehe... kaya ko nga kinuha eh

Hibernate

I will hibernate for the meantime. Just don't feel well today.
I feel like drinking German beer today. ASJ and I got one case of Radler.

Just Feel Better
Santana/Aerosmith


She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planned it
I've got a key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
Because it never worked before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
Girl I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have a season
Round and round it goes
And every day's the one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything that just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I'd do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all the things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting old, and
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah

[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing that just feel better