I MiSS YoU

narinig ko lang sa radio this morning and i happen to like this song talaga even yung original:

Thought I heard your voice yesterday
When I turned around to say
That I loved you baby
I realize, it was juss my mind
Played tricks on me

And it seems colder lately at night
And I try to sleep with the lights on
Every time the phone ringsI pray to
God it's you
And I just can't believe
That we're through

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me

Is it turning over this time
Have we really changed our minds about each other's love
All the feelings that we used to share
I refuse to believe
That you don't care

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss youIt's so easy to see
I miss you and me


I've got to gather myself as together
I've been through worst kinds of weather
If it's over now
Then I'll be strong
Can't believe that you're gone
I've got to carry over

I miss you
There's no other way to say it
And I, and I can't deny it
I miss you
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me
Oh there's no other way to say it
I can't deny it
I miss you baby
It's so easy to see
I miss you and me
Oh no other way to say it
I miss you baby
There's no other
That you're deprived of me now
That you're deprived of me now
I miss you
Said I can't deny itI, I, I, I miss you baby
It's so easy to seeI miss you and me


VIdeOKE NAAAAA!!!!
teka inantok ako. tulog ulet.

RaNDoM thOUghTS at 4:33 AM

Weird. I did not sleep early last night and yet I was up by 4:30 and could not sleep. I wish I could always do this every weekday so I wouldn't be late for office. I opened my YM and yahoo! I was lucky to find three friends who do not respond to me.

I had a weird dream. Really weird because i cant remember it. For sure, may mang-aasar na naman jan sa kin ng" di mo pala alam eh, how can it get weird" . Tulad din yan ng dream ko na naputulan ako ng ulo when i was young. When I told this story to my barkadings, they all laughed at me. Sabi nila "eh pano mo nalamang ikaw yun eh pugot ang ulo ". Hallleeeeer! Pilosopohin ba ako. Of course I know! Feeling ko sa dream eh.Kaya ganun din sa naexperience ko kagabi. I feel weird. weird.

When I woke up, nagising ako sa boses ng announcer sa AM radio ng Mama ko. Which is again weird, kasi naman natutulog lang sya!

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Dec 31 na. Ilang oras na lang at iiwan na ako ni 2004.

Maraming bagay ang nangyari sa akin ngayon 2004. Para rin yang 2003 na maraming highlights. Maraming bumago sa aking pagkakatao. At marami ring bagay ang nagbago sa kin physically like tumaba ako. Pakshet. Next year papayat na ako! Teka. Bukas na yun ha?
I bet marami na naman mang-aaway sa kin dahil sa aking eating habit. Don't you worry guys. Kakain ako ok? Basta naman wag lang sa bulaluhan...please!

Sabi nila dapat may new year's resolution ka. Ano kaya ang sa akin?
1. Lessen drinking of coffee.
2. Healthy living. Iwasan ang fats. If possible, magpakavegetarian.
3. Sleep early.
4. Wake up on time.

Achos! Gagawa pa ako ng listahan at mag-iisip eh di ko rin naman masusunod. wag na lang.

Wish ko lang sana happy ang new year ko. Siguro naman kasi I have my friends around me, loving me. Thanks to you my friends!!!


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Heto na naman. Mushy-mushy-han. Since end of the year na, a common question arises:
Have you found THE ONE ?

Yesterdays, I was singing songs on the phone and one of the songs that I remember singing was the song "i finally found someone..someone who knocks me off my feet...i finally found the one who makes me feel complete "

and then napaisip ako...

Have I found the one?

naks..feeling Carrie Bradshaw of SATC . Pansin ko lang, lagi yung sinusulat nya sa kanyang article starts with a question.

Tsk. Pag sinagot ko ito malamang maraming magrereact. hahahaha. Pakshet. Ano kala nyo sa kin, living thing? Pag sinabi kong OO, forever ako tatanungin ng mga friends ko dito. At alam nyong ayaw na ayaw kong pinagtatanong! Pag ayaw sumagot, wag pilitin!

Have i found the one? Eh ano ngayon kung nakita ko na? Bababa ba ang value ng piso? Di naman. Aayos ba lahat ng pasaway? Hindi naman.

Why do people keep asking if you have found the one? Amazingly, marami pa ring tao ang gusto magsettle with only one. Ang sarap naman kasi ng idea na you end up with this ONE person. This person that you truly love and loves you back. Pero sa movies lang nangyayari yon noh!
Although may ibang sinuswerte na they end up with their soulmate.

Soulmate . Yes i believe in one. To me a soulmate is one who has this part of you...that when that person is around, your energy level increases kasi nga the person has a part of you which adds up to your energy. Labo. Basta yun yun. Bagong gising eh. Have i found my soulmate? Yes.

Siguro yang DA ONE na yan, yan yung sinasabi kong MFEO or Made For Each Other . Ang sarap naman isipin na may ginawang tao just for you. Sabi nga ni Olive Oyl :" There's somebody for everybody".

Nasaan yung akin? Naks. Anjan lang siguro yan sa tabi-tabi. Nagkukukot ng kuko. Hehehe.

So to answer the question : Have you found the one ? ...

ang sagot ko ay...

SECRET NA MALUPET!

Wala namang maitutulong sa mundo kung malaman nito na may DA ONE ako o wala eh. Pero sana nga, may DA ONE ako. *muuuuussssshhhhyyyyyy*

-----M---O---R---N---I---N---G------S---I---C---K---N---E---S---S----

ARgggh! Bakit ba ako pinanganak na sipunin?

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Why are tears usually linked to sadness? Though may mga ibang naiiyak sa tuwa, bakit ba most of the time, we cry when we are sad or we are hurt? Kung magtanong ako para akong hindi human. Hehehe.

I am the person who doesn't usually cry. Or should I say, err, a person you will never see crying. I envy those people who can bravely cry their hearts out over a mushy movie ending or those who can weep in front of you while telling how they feel.

For somebody like me who is more used to laughing, ome might wonder: Do i cry?

Yes, I do. I weep but not often. And

not often ~ once in a blue moon.

Some people cry to pour emotions. I dont cry because I hate looking pitiful. Mapride kasi. Ayan. Tamaan na ang lahat ng mapride sa mundo. Hehe.

teka..break...

****haaaachooooooo*****

nahatshing ako.

Where were we?

SiMplEng Buhay

Bakit kaya nung bata ako, AnG simPle Lang Ng BuhAY:

GigiSing sa Umaga, Kakain ng AGAhan, MaNunUod ng SeSamE streET,

PaG di NakuntEnTo, PaTI batibot, PopEye, CareBears, Shaider, BiOmaN,

AsTRoBoy, VolTez FiVE, LoOney Tunes, at pati pEn-pEn dE Sarapen Pinapanuod..

Sa TangHali, kaKaIn Ulet (buti di ako Mahirap pAkainin)..

Tapos NuN, ay syeSTa na.

BakIT ba AnG mga BaTA ayaw na NatuTulog?

KuNG aLaM ko LAng NA gaNITo ang HiRAP ng PagIGIng ADuLT,

SiGURo NatULOg na AKo buOng ArAW nung BatA ako

Sa HaliP na NAgTulugtulUGAn at NAghilik-Hilikan..

(TaKE note:mASTERED ko ata yan, mAy paTirIk-Tirik Pa Ng Mata)

At TapOS magSyesta, Mag-AAbang ng pisbol sa tapat Ng Bahay

o kAYA ng SweET CoRN o BinATOg

HabANG nakikIpaglarO ng hARangang-Taga, pePsi-7-up, TaGUan, Moro-moro

TumBang PresO, Sipa, ToUCH Ball, FoOTball, Touch D ColOR,

MonkEY - MOnkEY, CHiNEse GarteR (whiCH i never PLayed) at kung Ano Pa..

TapoS nun, UuWi sa BaHAy, MagMAmaNO kAy MaMa at Papa

at MagNoNoVEna tuwiNG 6 PM

HabaNG tuMatagal, naGigIng kumPlikado na aNG buhaY

PagDAting ng HigHschOOl, BuoNG arAW na ang klaSE

WalA nanG panAHoN sa LaRO. Pag WeeKEnds na lang.

Lalo nAMan ng CollEge. HalOS di Ko na NakiTa anG dati KoNG mga Kalaro...

Kasi nAMan, yung iba sa kaniLA, may sarili nang mga pamilya...

Lumipas ang mga araw, ang mga buwan at mga taon...

Ang dating makulit na buhay ko ay makulit pa rin sa awa ng Diyos.

Pero marami nang nabago. Ang dating oras sa laro at tulog ay nawala.

Lahat ay napalitan ng mga bagay na ginagawa ng mga ADULTS.

Nagtatrabaho. Nagtatrabaho. At Nagtatrabaho.

Tulad ngayon. Nasa Office ako ngayon.

Dapat nga by now gumagawa na ako ng reports. Pero hindi.

Pwede ba huminto muna ang pormal kong buhay at ibalik sa dati kong nakagisnan?

Sana ang buhay ay simple lang. Kasi simple lang naman akong tao.

Gusto ko lang yung may makakain ako araw-araw,

gigising na kasama ang mga taong mahal ko,

makita ang paglitaw at paglubog ng araw,

maamoy ang malamig at preskong simoy ng hangin

gumawa ng tula at mga kanta,

at matulog ng mataimtim at tahimik.

ThE OnE wHO GoT AwAY

In your life, you'll make note of a lot of people. Ones with whom you shared something special, ones who will always mean something. There's the one you first
kissed, the one you first loved, the one you lost your virginity to, the one you put on a pedestal, the one you're with...and the one that got away.

Who is the one that got away? I guess it's that person with who everything was great, everything was perfect, but the timing was just wrong. There was no fault in the person, there was no flaw in the chemistry, but the cards just didn't fall the right way, I suppose.

I believe in the fact that ending up with someone, finding a longtime partner that is, does not lie merely in the other person. I can actually argue that an equal part, or maybe even the greater part, has to do with the matter of timing. It has to do with you being ready to settle down and commit to someone in a way that goes beyond the little niceties of giddy romance.

How often have you gone through it without even realizing it? When you're not ready to commit in that mature manner, it doesn't matter who you're with, it just doesn't work. Small problems become big; inconsequentials become dealbreakers simply because you're not ready and it shows. It's not that you and the person you're with are no good; it's just that it's not yet right, ..... and little things become the flashpoint of that fact.

Then one day you're ready. You really are. And when this happens you'll be ready to settle down with someone. He or she may not be the most perfect, they might not be the brightest star of romance to ever have burned in your life, but it'll work because you're ready. It'll work because it's the right time and you'll make it work. And it'll make sense, it really will.

So that day comes when you're finally making sense of things, and you find yourself to be a different person. Things are different, your approach is different, you finally understand who you are and what you want, and you've become ready because the time has truly arrived. And mind you, there's no telling when this day will come. Hopefully you're single but you could be in a long-term relationship, you could be married with three kids, it doesn't matter. All you know is that you've changed, and for some reason, the one that got away, is the first person you think about.

You'll think about them because you'll wonder, "What if they were here today?" You'll wonder, "What if we were together now, with me as I am and not as I was?" That's what the one that got away is. The biggest "What if?" you'll have in your life.

If you're married, you'll just have to accept the fact that the one that got away, got away. Believe me, no matter how fairy tale you think your marriage is, this can happen to the best of us. But hopefully you're mature enough to realize that you're already with the one you're with and this is just another test of your commitment, one which will just strengthen your marriage when you get past it. Sure, you'll think about him/her every so often, but it's alright. It's never nice to live with a "might have been," but it happens. Maybe the one that got away is the one who's already married. In which case it's the same thing. You just have to accept and know that your memories of that person will probably bring a nice little smile to your lips in the future when you're old and gray and reminiscing.

But if neither of that is the case, then it's different. What do you do if it's not yet too late? Simple...find him, find her. Because the very existence of a "one that got away" means that you'll always wonder, what if you got that one?

Ask him out to coffee, ask her out to a movie, it doesn't matter if you've dropped in from out of nowhere. You'd be surprised, you just might be "the one that got away" as well for the person who is your "the one that got away." You might drop in from out of nowhere and it won't make a difference. If the timing is finally right,
it'll all just fall into place somehow and you know, I'm thinking, it would be a great feeling, in the end, to be able to say to someone, "Hey you, you're the one
that almost got away."

*** This was forwarded to me via e-mail.

AnD sOO thIS is ChRistMAs

Dec. 22. Three days before christmas. But it doesn't seem like before. People are rushing to buy christmas gifts, kids are so excited for they know that they'll be gathering a handful of toys and probably money. But I'm not a kid anymore. I doubt if I'd ever get toys this christmas. Wish ko lang talaga.

I remember when I was a kid, I yearly asked my dad for a barbie doll. Yes, a barbie doll. A doll that all girls have, except me. The first time I asked for it, my dad brought home a humongous, japanese-talking, dancing doll named Linda . How could I ever forget the name when that doll caused me my sleepless nights, not to mention the bad dreams. The second time I asked for a barbie doll, my dad gave me a stupid, pink, baby doll which laughs when tilted up and cries when laid down! How stupid can it get!!! The next year was worst! He did not even get me a doll. Instead, he got me a red robot with pointed boobs, which apparently, i found out not to be boobs but actually hidden missiles. Hmm talk about me and my green mind. Yes, I was the girl version of boy bastos. The year after that, I got a very nice choooochoooo train. The year after that, a popeye game and watch and a pinball. Still, no barbie. Imagine? No barbie. Must be one of the reasons why I am not kikay like most other girls are. I never had the chance to comb barbie's hair, to dress barbie, to put make up on barbie.

Christmas is near. I also remember that every christmas, even when I was a small kid (believe me, I was small then), I find it so sad. Maybe its the christmas songs that keep me sad. Especially when they play.. pasko na sinta ko, hanap hanap kita . Maybe its the coldness of the christmas. Last year was the saddest of all christmasesases.

But you know what? I think, this year is gonna be a happy christmas for me. :-) Sana nga.

Of ChrIsTmaS ParTIes and HaTs

Hmm...december. Christmas season. Dozens of christmas parties. One of which will be happening an hour and a half from now. Everybody's excited except me. Well, who wouldn't be excited if you know that you've got a pile of work plus a thesis to finish! Okay lang, keri lang. HP naman ako eh...

NEW WORD :

HP - Happy P*kpek.

Isa lang wish ko: SANA MANALO AKO LATER!!!!! Well, whether it be the raffle or the contest, I wish i would win. I was never lucky at raffles. Though I can be lucky at times when it comes to contests. Kapal kasi ng mukha ko eh.

Yeah, when I come to think of it. I never won a raffle in my entire life. I have tried the lotto. Kahit 3 number combination, I never won. Even in raffles wherein 10 na lang ang mga sumama and 9 yung prizes, ako yung maiiwan...talk about not so good luck.hehehe. I guess I am luckier over some things..

1. Family - I have such loving parents and siblings. I could not ask for more.

2. Friends - I have plenty of them. Kaya masaya. Kung true man o hindi, wala na akong pakelam. Basta I consider them my friends.

3. Career - Not overwhelming but I can say that I am a professional earning a decent amount of money. Para sa kin, decent na yun. Madali naman ako makuntento eh.

So you see, I guess I am lucky din naman eh. Di nga lang sa raffle. Oh, but I really want to win the 4.1 Megapixel Sony Camera and the Sofa Set.

By the way, here's my pix with my award-winning (to be) HAT. Hot ba?



Face value pa lang...tsk tsk tsk...talo na! hehehe...

I remember last year's party was the saddest party that I had in my entire life. I was so hollow then. But still, it wasn't obvious kasi blooming pa rin ako..Hehehe joke. Siguro magaling ako magtago. Though a very close friend of mine would see the sadness in my eyes. That was past. And am glad that I'd get to celebrate christmas again with friends and officemates.

Hmm.. I wonder..may makatalo kaya ng hat ko?


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extra! extra!

---- nakakainis! may alumni homecoming meeting bukas!!! di tuloy ako makakasama sa EK..wawang bata..

---- namatay yung si ma'am M. Condolence sa family nya. Naku lagot, di ko alam ang procedures for extension of my thesis.

---- heller sa mga nagtyatyagang magbasa ng blog kong walang sense. hehehe.ano pa ba, eh its all about me.

---- my boo keeps playing on my mind...hang cute kasi!

LAtEsT NeWs kAy GorGEOuS

Wooooohoooooowwww!!!! Long time no post!!! Hmm..I have been busy a couple of days..uhmm..no..weeks...uhmm...no...months!!!!!

For all my fans (hahaha as if!) here are some updates:

1. Weeks ago, a friend of mine, frootbroot, went to the Philippines for some business-related stuffs. I remember that was a thursday. My bestfriend can and I were driving along C5 when suddenly something hit the windshield of the car she's driving (which of course, im riding..this does make sense right?). Basically it was a pillbox. Tama ba ang spelling? Pasensya na kung mali. Good thing, the windshield was broken but was not shattered into pieces. We then went to the airport and picked up this friend of ours who happens to be lost!!!! His surname starts with a letter "W" and he was on the "ABC" counter!!! My gasss!!!! Hehehe...I still found him anyways.

2. Last week, just before the coming of Winnie and Yoyong, we were able to go to corregidor. I was able to take some pictures..see below.



ganda ng manila di ba?



me and can getting jiggy with the BIG GUN.



buti pa sila sweet....

3. I was so preoccupied by work, thesis and so many things. Work is piling up. My thesis is not moving. Maybe this weekend I can get to work on them.

4. Hay, right now my mind is kinda konting magulo. Dami kasing iniisip. But I know this shall pass. Right, gorgeous?

5. Oh, by the way, for the 2nd time, nanalo na naman akong 5S violator!!! Geesh!!! Ganun ba kagulo ang table ko? Eto lang naman sya...



Di naman di ba? hehehe...

6. Di ako makakasama sa EK party ng mga friends ko dito so office because I have an Alumni Homecoming meeting to attend. Huhuhu....

7. I wanna watch a movie. Drink coffee. Eat isaw. Eat cheesecake. Hay sana lang...